Yooooooo

I haven't posted anything since 3 weeks ago. There wasn't much things I did this few weeks anyway, so I have been kinda collecting stuff to write about.

First of all, I went and watched Catching Fire. And to be completely honest, it was definitely one of the most satisfying book-to-movie adaptation. Can someone give Jennifer Lawrence another Oscar ? Garde A acting right there ! I really love love love the movie and it is one of the best movies in my list. It was so much better than the 1st movie as it follows the book more accurate and it also added a few things that was great addition. I am so glad I watched it in the cinema. Lora and I screamed NO ! loud when Mags went and commit suicide ahhah. I am so excited for what MockingJay is going to bring us but I am also afraid cause I don't think I can handle Peeta getting hijacked. :'(  I will probably end up curling in sorrows in the cinema floor when that happen.

LOOK AT THE DRESS. 

The another movie I watched in the cinema was Frozen. I know many people are still quite sceptical about this movie but I honestly don't have anything against it. It was a nice kid-friendly movie, not the best Disney movie ever but it passed the test I guess. The animation on the ice though was stunning and Elsa's dress was also so beautiful. I kinda predicted that Prince Hans was gonna be the villain in the end so wasn't much of a plot twist to me. Though I don't see why some people say Anna looks like Rapunzel from Tangled, I honestly don't see it but then I am not good in face matching. There are also some people who ships Jack from The Rise of The Guardians with Elsa and I don't know why (since I like Merida and Jack together) but I totally can see them getting together. You know, just saying that for fun. 

I have also finished Angelfall and I love it. Just absolutely love the whole story about the world after apocalypse and that little twist about how not all Angels all good and stuff. I don't think it would appeal to people who are quite sensitive about this kind of topic though. The writing wasn't too difficult to understand, it was simple and not too dragging. I enjoyed reading every page of this book. I would totally recommend people to read this book because come on this book definitely has a nice storyline. The author also didn't really pushed the whole thing about how the girl must be in a relationship into this book. (It shows signs of romance but that is kind of just a minor thing as the it doesn't stray too much from the main plot which is what every author does to their book like okay okay enough already. ) The owner of my go-to-bookstore said that this book was kinda underrated. I am super glad I picked this book up and gave it a try. 

The owner of my go-to-bookstore is not gonna sell me World After (which is the 2nd book of Angelfall. ) until I finish like a gaziillion books that I bought ages ago so I have to read finish The Book Thief before I could get my hands on that sweet book. Which is good because I tend to buy more books than I can read. 

I have also been playing Batman: Arkham Origins and honestly so far so good. Yet talking about this game pisses me off because I accidentally deleted the game file so all my save file is gone and I have to replay the whole game again and I honestly don't want to restart the whole thing. Anyway, the developer are different from the one that made Arkham Asylum and City and definitely made everyone worry (even me) that the new developer was going to screw it up but they didn't ! They kept the same awesome controls as the last two games and they didn't change stuff that didn't need changing. I was told the storyline wouldn't be focus too much on Joker as I thought maybe Joker will be just a side mission and such so I was surprise that the main plot had Joker in it but whatever it was just a short part of it anyway. I am genuinely satisfied with the game. 

 I have also completed Young Justice : Legacy and I am so disappointed with it. I mean I didn't expect much of the gameplay and the graphic because I seen the screenshot and kinda got the main idea of it but come on the storyline was just plain weak.. I mainly play it because of the storyline and how it would so cool if I could play as Miss Martian, Artemis and the team. AND I WAS TOTALLY HOPING THAT THEY WOULD TALK ABOUT HOW JASON DIED BUT THEY DIDN'T D: Instead they talked about how Tula die, not that I am complaining or anything. Something I am not satisfy is the emotions in the voice was so forced, I couldn't actually can hear the sadness or any expression in their voice. I think they are the same voice actor as the animated series but I find the voice just plain disappointing.  I did enjoy reading Red Arrow's journal and was quite curious to why Roy and Chesire got together and broke up so fast like wut ? How the hell Lian was made between this short amount of time ?!

In this few weeks, I actually order a sweater and a Doc Martens inspired boots from my friend which just arrived just like 5 minute ago ( my friend texted me haha ) and and I am so excited to receive it and hold it in my arm. I manage to find a nice black thin sweater with yellow stars on it and a new backpack as my current one is chipping off but I haven't been out so I can't use them D: I will post a picture on the next post if I remember or if anyone wants to see ? (I doubt anyone reads my blog) 

Comic Fiesta is coming soon and I am so excited but I haven't ask my dad whether I could overnight at my friend's place before the day as it will be much more simpler and easier to go to the place together. So wish me luck that my dad will say yes. CROSSING FINGERS. 

Anyway, I will stop here as I don't think I have much to talk about any more. Have a nice day ! 

The feels shgfjhasdf

I finished Allegiant ! To be honest, there are some parts of the book that made me want to rip the character's throat out but I am not that disappointed with the book.

If you haven't read the book. There may have contains spoiler here. You have to admit it that Veronica Roth has guts to kill off one of the important characters. There are many people who complains about why did Veronica had to kill off Uriah. I think what she wanted to do was to give Tobias a sense of grief, to make him realise that sometimes don't let your anger cloud your judgement. He was angry and he made a wrong choice. He ignore advices gave by Tris and suffer the consequences.

Despite how long the relationship has been going on and how much shit Tris and Tobias go through, you might think that they will be more trusting of each other. But nooo, they fight about different opinions like seriously can you sit the hell down and discuss this problem.

The storyline just gets more complicated with its Genetically Pures and damaged but this explains how some people are exactly the way their factions are. There are disappointments in the book but I think what people focus most of their anger on is the fact that she killed off Tris. (SPOILER. SORRY.) You have to give her the benefit of doubt. I for one absolutely understand the reason why Tris did what she did because she loved her brother and she doesn't want her brother to sacrifice himself so he could receive forgiveness from her. "Abnegation have teachings about this, you know. About when to let others sacrifice themselves for you, even if it's selfish. They say that if the sacrifice is the ultimate way for that person to show you that they love you, you should let them do it. " I think this line said by Tobias was what made Tris did what she did.

You would think Tobias will bloody grow up and learn from his mistakes but no, he just keep committing stuff without thinking about it thoroughly like seriously can you not do that ?!

The book had pissed me off and made me cry. I still can't figure out whether it is a good book or not but it had definitely made me sad.   I can't really pinpoint what make me angry about the book so this post looks like it is more of a compliment for the book. Hah, sorry :/

Legend of Korra: Book 2: Spirits just ended like on Saturday ? I just finish watching it today so yeah. I AM STILL CONSUME OVER THE FEELS THEY GAVE ME AND IT HAS BEEN ALMOST 12 HOURS AND I STILL HAVE SO MUCH FEELS.

Jinora was so brave and just so perfect. I am absolutely love her character. Can I get more of her screen time in Book 3 ?! The writers should seriously stop giving Asami so much grief like what the hell no stop. I don't know what to say about Mako, like seriously, he is being such a class A dick. I think he is kind of a huge douche so yeah. (sorry but not sorry.)  I am honestly so glad Makorra is over, I am not sure others are feeling the same way as I am but I think Korra needs to get herself away from the love drama and grow as a person.

What I absolutely loved about the finale is that Korra finally look at herself as Korra and not Avatar Korra. She let the Avatar title get to her head last time and when she realise that being an Avatar is not all she is, she grow as a character. Korra who for her whole life dream of being a good Avatar, use her own spirit powers to save the world. I thought that was good. And the fact that Korra actually takes her time to think things through. In the past she will always be rash and crazy but in the end she realise that maybe closing the spirit portal is a bad idea and actually think it through. I am just so proud ajgajkfhgkjdsh

I think the scene that really show Korra's character development was the part when she immediately said sorry to Desna and Eska about Unalaq. Instead of celebrating, she apologize to them for not being able to save him. She genuinely felt guilty for not saving Unalaq.

Korra  accepted that she was in an unhealthy relationship and broke it off. THAT TOOK SOME SERIOUS GUTS OKAY ?! Korra really likes Mako and to let it go just made me super proud of her.If Korra kept pressing on about their relationship, they will only end up hurting each other. Korra needs time to grow up even more and being in such an unstable relationship will just affect her.  And Tenzin ! He also realise that it is not his job to complete his father's legacy. All Aang wanted was Tenzin to be Tenzin but Tenzin misunderstood but the finale really make Tenzin became more clear of his destiny and help Korra in her destiny too.

I have deep respect for Asami. Like seriously. With all the shit going on with her life, she pushed everything away to help Korra, to help the world. Just wow. Big applause man. I really do hope she gets a happy ending...

The ending was good. I was really pissed at the beginning of the Book 2 but I am pleased by the ending. I ended up shouting very loudly when Vaatu was attacking Raava and all the past Avatar's connection disappear. I think I even cried. I really don't know whether I can hold off till Book 3. I need it now lkfjlaskjgif

Seriously though, am I the only one who thought of Shingeki no Kyojin when Vaatu and Korra as fighting in giant form ?

My writing is horrible in this post. Oh my god. What happen to me ? Anyway, I am rewatching Young Justice again just so I can cry even more. ( hahaha what am I doing to myself )

I will end here before I blind you with my horribleness.

Days wasted.

 Hello guys ! I am back from my trip to Bali. It was a nice trip. Saw a lot of beautiful scenery, ate a lot of good food and generally had fun. This few pictures are the only one I could take and I hope it is at least acceptable.The place I went here has some strong waves and it was really calming. The height didn't really help me though as I am afraid of heights (which is super ironic as I want to be able to do some serious cool ass parkour)

 I also ate at a restaurant on the beach. It was so beautiful and we managed to catch the sunset. Although I didn't get to go and dip around the ocean, I am hoping next time I will be able to come Bali again and hopefully know how to swim at that time. (embarrassed that I can't swim haha)

That is all the pictures I have. I didn't really get to take a lot of pictures as I was feeling quite unwell during my trip but you just have to make the best out of it, am I right ?? 

So anyway, during my leave of absence, I manage to finish Shingeki No Kyojin. I downloaded the episode every week when it first release and was planning to watch it at that time but with how exams going around and me being impatient for needing to wait a new episode every week made me wait till the season was over before I watched it. I can tell you that I am impressed, very impressed. 

Just a short summary, Shingeki No Kyojin/ Attack on Titan is a anime set one hundred years prior to the beginning of the story, giant humanoid creatures called the Titans force humanity to retreat and stay hidden in a system of concrete walls. The walls protected the humans for 100 years until one day, a 60 meter titan decided that that day was perfect to knock down the walls surrounding/ protecting the humans. Story is mostly surrounding a guy who wants to fight back against the titans and realising that he can transform into a Titan. ( Kinda a typical story if you ask me. ) 

The storyline was perfectly enough to make me want more of it. As a viewer , I really appreciate a good storyline ( I think I said it before) and a good storyline is one of the main reasons that makes me come back to a TV series or a book series. It did felt a little rushed for me though but netherless I enjoyed it. 

The characters are good. Hajime Isayama did a really good job in portraying how some humans are ignorant or cruel or just plain nice. It really make you notice that there are too some people like that in real life. The cruelty in life is portrayed nicely in the manga/show. You are shown how some people moans, cries, get angry because of their situation. You are shown how most people handle their fear and those who doesn't. There are also those characters that only thinks of themselves and gets you all riled up even though it is just a show because of how true the character is to some real life human beings.  Though the ability of some of the characters are a little unrealistic but whatever I guess. It is nice to gawked at people's awesome abilities too. There is a nice amount of character development in the TV series but of course it is not completely finished as the manga is still going on. And that is what keep me coming back for more. The relationships between some of the characters made me so emotional and kept my hand busy with clutching my pillow in fear and sadness. This is because some of the characters that they made you love them dies and you are left with their lover or their family being all shitty sad and you are just there weeping. 

The series did a good job portraying helplessness and realistic emotions. The anime is quite gruesome so if you can't handle it, I don't think it is a good idea to watch it but hey hey you never know if you never try right ? The soundtrack for the show is perfect. Most of the time, once I hear the opening and closing song in the first episode, I would skip it in the other episodes but I found myself not skipping it and just sitting down with the earphones on jamming to the music. 

The animation was good and different compare to all those other animes I watched. It looked realistic with what how a person, a normal person would look like. It shows one's emotions really well and you can find yourself laughing at some of the titan's design though after a while, you will probably be petrified with what the titans did. The gruesome part wasn't some lame attempt , in fact, it was quite realistic. It is also nice to see the art of the character are based on their family. As you can see the main character Mikasa has black hair, light skin and black, calming eyes , which is typically how a Asian look like. It makes the anime more realistic you know. (Mikasa is a mix of Japanese and American but you get what I mean right ?)

I can see why it is the most anticipated anime show this year and why everyone is so crazy over it. I find myself getting crazy over it too. Almost everywhere I go, I will definitely see it or hear some people talk about it. It is a anime that I will rewatch in the future. I am now catching up with the manga as the manga is faster than the anime (duh! ) and it will keep me restrain enough for season 2 (if it is coming out, it is not confirmed yet.) Animes are usually one of the reasons people can excited for the manga and yea, if the guy in charge was planning to get more people into his manga by making this show, well, he did a great job in it. 

I am not going to bother giving an overall rating as I suck at giving those because I always can't make up my choice between this number or the other. But it is definitely an anime I recommend people to watch. 

I am finishing up Allegiant now and so far, not really happy with it. We'll see how it goes. 

I feel like I am being so obnoxious this few days so let me just hide in my room and not talk to anyone until I learn to stop being so obnoxious. Yeap. The perfect plan ! 

Anyway, I leave you with an awesome video on this guys who made a real life version of Sokka's meteorite sword from REAL meteorite. Hella rad. 

I am going to go try sleep off this sudden obnoxious attitude off. Yeap. See you at the next post ! 

The Guide

I just can't. This week's episode is just....

I was so happy when I saw Korra appearing in the Air Temple and how she became so mature and rational. I just want to cry over how Wan influence Korra to be a better Avatar. SO PROUD I TELL YOU.

Then Mako appear with Asami and I was like "dafuq Mako, YOU AND KORRA JUST BROKE UP ONE WEEK AGO. HOW MUCH OF A DICK YOU CAN BE ?" I used to like Mako so much but now I am just like whatever. I ain't even going to say anything about this because the storyline is expanding so well I just don't want to even bother talking about it. I think with all these love triangle shit going on for two seasons, I just have no emotions towards this oh-so-surprising-plot-twist scene. And I thought Korra and Asami finally could starts being friends for once sob sob

Jinora ! She is one of my favourite characters in the series and I was so glad she got more screen time. Jinora finally rise up to her destiny and Tenzin stepped aside for her daughter. That was just a great scene. I also like how Tenzin finally express how pressure it is that he never enter the spirit world before. We heard about how Bumi and Kya feels about not being an airbender and disappointing Aang and how Tenzin is the favourite child. But now in this episode, Tenzin reveals to his siblings how really hard it was.

Although I still can't believe the cheerful Aang from A:TLAB is how they say he was. I do believe that Aang may not pay as much attention to Kya and Bumi compare to Tenzin because of the airbending legacy but they kinda made it sound like Aang was a horrible father. D:

It was hilarious to see Korra being calm and shit when she couldn't enter the Spirit world where else Tenzin is just running all over the place and blaming people. What a twist in characters. HAHAH

I finally know what is Unalaq's deal like I have been confused for the past 3 episodes but now I know why. What a bloody relief.

Korra, let's talk about her. Oh my god, I am so proud of her. She seems more calm and collected. She also seems to be more accepting to the spiritual energy and admits & apologizes for her wrongdoings, this is great, this is just super great because she is maturing to a BAMF. She is changing her arrogance ways for the better kgjladkj. I am beyond excited for the next episodes about her. I hope they don't butcher her beautiful character development. hahaha. I do hope that when Korra goes back to Republic City, she won't go back to Mako. In fact, I wish she will just smile and walk away from all these drama. Frankly, I think she and Asami is better off without Mako. General Iroh and her make a great couple, don't you think ? ;) Or she could just not date anyone because she is a badass chick that need no man to save the world. It would be nice to see that.

I also really enjoy how Korra pushed her break up with Mako to the side because the Harmonic Convergence is more important and she is focusing her duty as an Avatar. It really shows that her character develop so much compare to season 1 when she is just involving herself in this teenage drama and just pining over Mako.

Overall, it was a good episode with a few pissed off moments. Yup. THE PLOT THICKENS. I can't believe I have to wait another week for another episode. Just ughh what a drag.

I will be out of town for a few days so I won't be able to post anything. I apologize for posting so much Korra stuff this past days. It is just omg, I am super obsessed with this TV series now. Sorry :/

The Beginning

I am so satisfy with Legend of Korra : The Beginnings episode ! For the whole of Book 2, I have been cringing at Korra's actions. I found myself screaming at the screen because of Korra's foolishness and irrationality, so this episode really made me super happy.

After 6 episodes of not explaining why there are dark spirits roaming the human universe , we finally found out why and how the first ever Avatar came to be. This episode really help move the plot forward because honestly we seen the writers stray away from the plot in Book 1 because of the teenage dramas a.k.a those love-triangle/square, those unnecessary dramas between the characters that have not much to do with the story plot. Quite a number of the audience was not at all impressed by Book 2 and frankly, I can see why. The battle Korra had with Amon did not teach her ANYTHING about being rational.

Maybe this little spirit thing she have with Wan and knowing Wan's story can really teach her a thing or two. Throughout the Book 1 and Book 2 (it is not yet ending yet. ), I don't notice much development with Korra's character. In TLAB, you can really notice how each member of Gaang develop in each of the episode. Sadly in TOK, there isn't much development in characters.

The amnesia she had was a perfect excuse for the writers to go back from the very start and explain to us what Book 2 was really about. And it did a fantastic job !

There is still 2 more episodes in Book 2 and I am so so excited for it. Maybe the last two episodes will impress me and the viewers ! I am not saying that LOK is a bad animated TV series, it is just not what I expected especially when it is from the writers that brought TLAB alive.

The animation in that episode was stunning ! The details in most of the scenes are really good. It is obvious they did their research on Asian culture because the buildings in the episode are how it is suppose to be in the olden days. They didn't change it, in fact they show people the beauty of olden Asian arts (did I say it out correctly ? ). This is one of the moments that made me appreciate my culture even more. Studio Mir's works is honestly one of the best !

LOOK HOW NICE THE ANIMATION IS ! 

I like Wan. For me, a good character and a good storyline are the keys in capturing someone's interest. Wan is a nice balance between Korra's rashness and Aang's peacefulness. I really want to see more of Wan's adventures. Hahah. Steven Yeun did such a good job with voicing Wan. It just felt so suitable for Wan you know... 

I really do hope Zuko and his daughter appear in some part of the series. I am curious about them. I also do hope we get to see more interaction between Korra and Asami. It feels that Asami and Korra are not even friends. It would be nice to see Korra and Asami interacting instead of just Makorra, makorra. I am pretty sure people are getting sick of it already. Don't mistaken me as I do like Makorra but sometimes showing Korra interacting with another characters is good too ya'll know. 

Right now, I am so so anxious for the next episode. 

Getting off topic to talk about a little of my life here. My dad doesn't allow me to go out and work. He didn't even bother hearing what I was about to say, he just said no once he heard job come out of my mouth. And frankly I am so pissed, why can't he listen to me and see stuff in my perspective once in a while ? I need some job experience right ?! When other people are learning to be independent, I am trapped in this hellhole I call home. This is complete bullshit. HE DOESN'T EVEN WANT TO LISTEN TO WHAT I WANT TO SAY. This is the reason why I want to leave this house so badly ! I don't even get freedom ! They complain about me locking myself in the room, maybe because it is them that is why I lock myself in my room! Ughh, I am so bloody pissed. It is like they don't want me to be independent ! UASHJDHS 

Stopping here before I break the keyboard. Till next time, bye.

First day of freedom.

First day of freedom and I am already bored out of my life. So technically when I am having the major exams, I somehow manage to find a tons of stuff to do on the computer but now that I have finally finish my examination, I can't find shit to do. This is bad.

Anyway, my friend asked me whether I wanted a job at the cafe she is working in. Of course I want a job, I need the extra bucks. The problem is my dad, I have to ask him and I am about 99% percent sure he won't let me work. I need to somehow convince him to let me gain some experience. Oh please please please let me go apply for a job this holiday :/

I am seriously bored already. I am tired and having a headache. Such a nice thing to have on the first day of freedom huh ?

Anyhowwww, I literally has nothing to post right now. Sorry. :/

Wish me luck ???!?

Last paper tomorrow !

I can feel the weight of this year's studies slowly lifting up from my shoulder as tomorrow is my last paper. I don't even want to study anymore. Maybe I will just wing it tomorrow ? hahaha

I have so many storybooks to read and shows to watch. I am so so so so excited. Yet I have to study a bit during this year end holiday as next year is my major exam and I can't screw that up or I can say bye-bye to my future. I feel like I am going to end up lonely and sad this holiday but we'll see right ? We'll see. I am hoping my friends will remember my existence... D:

I am trying not to get myself too involve with Twitter. It was going well for 4 days then poof I am back again. Like nope. My hard work isn't going to flush down into the toilet again Nope. Nope. Nope.

I should probably get some good night sleep but nah, I will just watch a TV and read some history. Till next post ! Sorry for writing such a short one, I have nothing to write at all. NOTHING.

Still in exam week. Ughh.

So I am so disappointed with myself because I sneak a peek into Legend Of Korra episode when I obviously promise myself that I won't watch till after exams.

The mini sneak peak I saw was Mako and Korra breaking up and Korra lost her memories. The latter was kinda unexpected and surprisingly to me that I didn't predicted that because I always tend to predict this kind of stuff in TV shows. Maybe because so far Legend of Korra didn't disappoint me with used plotline and what so what ? It will be exciting to see how amnesia works in the Avatar universe.

When I sneak a peak and saw Korra ended up in the Fire Nation (just guessing because of the clothes the guys wore.) , I was utterly excited because Zuko and Iroh ! We didn't get to see much of Iroh in Season 1 (He appeared in season 2 for a while. I didn't watch that episode too. D: ) and I really like his character (maybe because his voice actor is the same as Zuko's. THE VOICE ) and really wants to see more of his character. If Korra is in fire nation then maybe Iroh will pop out ? Zuko, don't even get me started on Zuko. Zuko is still alive based on the first season and honestly I miss the Gaang, it will be nice to see Zuko again. Super duper excited for it, but I still haven't watch the episode, as I said, I cheated and sneak a peak into the video. :(

 I will catch with tons of shows after my exams is over so so so I am so anxious for exam to end. Examination has made me sleep-deprived and generally I am so so so exhausted. For the past two days, I have been sleeping at 3 something and waking up at 6.30 and I don't get to have nap time. Even when I do, it is usually like 45 minutes or an hour. Technically, I have been only sleeping for 7 hours in two days. We have only one paper tomorrow, so I can hopefully go to sleep earlier tonight. But then after school tomorrow, I have to study hardcore because next week is going to be super duper torturous.

Well then , I'll stop here. Night !

House of Hades ???

Finally got House of Hades but I have to wait 14 days more to read it. Ish, stupid exams. And then there is Mark of Athena which I forgot a bit so I have to reread it. What a drag :(

To be honest, I am not particularly fond of Rick's writing. Ever since my friend told me that the way he writes is kinda simple. I kinda lost interest in it a bit. The storyline is still great and I guess he does have to write simple because his books are widely known aim towards kids (I guess)

AM I THE ONLY ON WHO DOESN'T LIKE PIPER ? I don't know why but I am not fond of her. She didn't annoy me much during the first book, The Lost Hero, but when I read Mark of Athena, I found myself rolling my eyes at everything she does and just getting plain annoyed by some of her actions. Hmmm. My friend, Christopher,  likes her as her character and claims that she helps them by charm-speaking. She kinda reminds me of those overly attached girlfriends ?? When I reread Mark of Athena, I will try to say why I don't like her because frankly, I forgot most of the battles in there. The only few things I remember well is Annabeth and Percy's moments. (I WILL GO DOWN WITH THIS SHIP )

I am thinking of picking up Game of Thrones after exam and after I have enough money for cosplay but so many people says on Goodreads that is gruesome. I seen a few episode of Game of Thrones and I can admit it is gruesome. TV doesn't show everything written in the book so I assume the book is more gruesome that the TV series. The book is the type of heavy reading books. So hmmm, still deciding over it.

Anymore, I am off to study while watching some youtube videos. Wish me luck !

Tears.

I watched the Finn Tribute episode today and I cried. The tears keeps streaming down.

Let's not assume stuff. I am not a Glee diehard fan. I used to watch Glee season 1 and 2 then I stopped cause it didn't interest me much anymore. When I found out Cory died, I was shocked & sad. At first I thought it was already false rumor but when someone literally confirm his death and I saw the picture of Lea crying on his coffin, I felt my heart break a bit. To know they made a episode tribute to him, I just know I had to watch the episode.

The whole episode was just heartbreaking. I just cried throughout the whole thing. The part when Finn's mom talk about losing a child got to me so badly, I kinda just burst into tears there. And the part when Santana just lose her strong and tough cover-up and just breaks down in the choir room. The episode was just heartbreaking and Lea's cover of Make you feel my love is just full of emotions.

Some people said that it is pathetic how the fans cry over some celebrity's death when there are so many people out there dying and said that he deserve it. What they don't understand is that the fans watched the shows since season 1 and has grown to love Cory as Finn and as a person, so knowing he passed away is like knowing a good friend of you has died. I feel disgusted when I saw someone saying that he was asking for it because it is confirm that he was drug overdose. No matter what, don't you ever say that about someone who died. He was trying to overcome this addiction and sometimes addiction tends to take over.

I don't appreciate how some people are just seeing how he die instead of the good he has done. Yes, every single life is important but please do not act like some "kind" person who says a tons of bullshit about people should be crying over people who are starving to death instead of a celebrity. Respect his death or memories the same way you want people to do so when your time ends. I am not saying you shouldn't be sad over other people, I am just saying that please do not go to people's videos and just plain out saying that his death is not worth it to be sad over. That is just plain rude.

I don't know what encourage me to write this post but I just wanted to write about this.
Life is a precious thing, isn't it ?

Ughh. Exam will be the death of me.

Sorry I haven't been updating. Like I said in my previous post, my finals are here so I won't be able to go on the net for a while. But since today was a off day, I thought I should at least update a bit ? Don't really know what to say right now.

I am suppose to wake up early today but I overslept again. Ish, what is wrong with me ? I also have been having some weird dreams lately. HELP ?? I don't know what I ate or drink but so many weird things in my dream. D:

I have guitar class later, which I am kinda sick of. When I told my mom I wanna quit because I don't think I am learning much from my teacher. She says I always quit things half-way but I seriously don't think it is a good thing to let me continue. I could always try to learn myself in the future but not now, I am exhausted everyday and I feel lazy to go class everyday. Plus it will be saving money too ? I really don't know what I should do.... I am so stressed over this.

I will stop here. This post is just a short one because exams. Ughh

If I stay in a four season country, my favourite season will be Autumn.

I thought I would write a post as I am not actually attempting to study right now so why the hell not right ??

I am so so so so so so excited for House of Hades and Allegiant which is coming out this month ! The only thing that sadden me is the fact that for three books straight I bought the wrong cover for Heroes of Olympus series. I bought the lame cover by penguin because I couldn't wait for the Disney cover to release which is gorgeous by the way. That is what I regret most but then, if I waited for the Disney cover, I have to wait like 5 months at least ? So I don't know but the Disney cover is so beautiful. BOOK PORN I TELL YOU !

8tracks is seriously one of the best creation ever made. I am not one who has unlimited space in my computer or phone so I can't put much music in it but 8tracks are there to save me. There are people out there who just have the same music taste than me (even better I reckon) so finding playlist I like is easy as abc. I am actually spending my time not studying finding nice playlist for studying (what the hell is wrong with me).

Talking about studying, I am seriously so depressed over the effort I made this week. Nothing goes in my head and I am too preoccupy with the computer to even care about studying. I have very very low willpower and I hate myself so much for it :(

I should stop spending my extra time on the computer and actually go study now because I have only 3 days left. Ughh, absolutely nerve-racking. Can't wait for the finals to end because once it ends, it is time to curl myself  in the warm blanket and just watch Attack On Titans, Legend of Korra, etc and just read my books with a cup of tea. Hmm, sounds like heaven.

Anyway, I need to go study now or I will fail in my exams. Night !

Insecurities

I don't know what brought me into talking about insecurities today. Maybe it is the depression in me today, maybe I just needed to try inverting my negative thoughts into something positive but anyhow I am here writing about it.

Being insecure is something I struggle with the most. Ever since I started actually being conscious about how I look, my grades, my ability to do stuff, insecure depressing thoughts always pop into my head without fail. Once that happens, I find myself comparing myself with other people and all these comparing stuff ends up with me being the stupid one or the ugly one or the untalented one. There will be times when I just stare at myself in the mirror and think of all the worst possible insults for myself. It is not something I proud of. (obviously)

I think one of the main reason why I am always insecure about myself is because I see everyone having a best friend they can hang out with/talk to or a group of friends who will always be there for them. I tend to think that my friends hang out with me because they feel like they need to. I can't honestly believe that they are friends with me because they genuinely wants to. I know it is unhealthy to think that way but I do. All the time and honestly, I feel like dying.

Just recently, I realize that I should stop being like this, stop being so negative about myself and just try to happy in my own way. It was going great for a few days and then shits happens and now the negativity is back into my life. Maybe it is back because this few days, I seen my friends just being so close on twitter and I am just in the sidelines being alone. Maybe it is because exam is coming and I see everyone studying but I have no willpower to actually study. Maybe because this few days, I spend my days and nights locked up in my room, being depressed and sometimes sitting on the bed, just staring at nothing thinking about bad things in my life. I know I shouldn't be like this, but sometimes you just think about it or do it without even yourself knowing.

I want to be happy. I am pretty sure everyone wants to be happy. But every time I try to be happy, it fails so badly. I know I shouldn't be complaining because some people has it worse but I just needed to get this out somewhere. I'm sorry.

I also know I said I will try not to talk so much about being depressed all the time. So I apologize for today's post is me being depressed old me. Maybe I should quit twitter for a few weeks since I think 60% of my insecurities comes from there. Yea, I should.

I remember Bernadine told me before that, maybe the reason why I tend to feel so alone is because I haven't find the right group of friends yet. Maybe I haven't found friends that I can talk to so well and that I can just have fun with them. Probably. Maybe in the future, I will find friends that are right for me (is that the right words to use ??? ) Just maybe. One can always hope right ?

I'm sorry because this post is just genuinely depressing and some people may find it annoying. I shall stop here and try to study before I fail all my tests. Bye ?

Something different today ?

I just noticed a few post back, I said that I will write a post about LoK and Beware the Batman, which I found embarrassing and hilarious because who am I to talk about it ? I am not someone very fancy or smart or something something (Forgot the word) so I am not entitled to talk about it at all. Embarrassingggggg and I'm sorry for saying that post.

Just a few hours ago, I went to Subang Parade with my family and they were having a guardian sale over there. Trying to dress/be more like my age, I decided to see the make up department. They were having incredible prices there and I couldn't help buying some. 

I am not some beauty expert, in fact I have no experience with make-up at all but I have been thinking of learning how to apply make-up. I mean I at least have to learn right ? So that when I am older, I won't struggle with it too much.The Urban Decay's Naked eye shadows palette is definitely on my wishlist because honestly, the colours are gorgeous and some of my favourite Youtubers have this palette and it looks GORGEOUS. I don't think I will look good in dramatic colours so I thought that palette would be nice. BUTTTT since I stay in Malaysia and the make-up here is expensive as sjkadfhfjkasdhf, the hope of owning one disappear. Therefore, I opted for a cheaper option to start my make-up journey.

 This is the SilkyGirl eye shadows palette (which doesn't have a name to it. ) The colours are pretty warm and simple. There was this lady who was looking for a black eyeshadow and she told me that black was a perfect blending colour. Taking her advice I got this :

This is just a grey silvery and a black colour so I thought it will be nice ? (Like I say I don't know much about make-up. ) It is the 07 Silver Star. 

Yeap. I got those two palettes. Like I said in this posts, I am not a make-up expert, just someone trying to learn how to apply make up so don't expect anything from me. I am really excited to how I am going to use this two palettes. Wish me luck in trying to learn stuffs about make-up ?? :/

My History book is beside me as I type this post and I should be studying but I am not. Those videos from Youtube is distracting me to no end. I am hoping I am able to go Coffee Bean or Starbucks tomorrow to study because studying at home is so distracting because Wi-Fi and laptop. 

I should stop here and sleep and wake up tomorrow with tons of energy to study.

I hope this post won't make people angry as I am just trying to show some of purchases that I made. I have this weird thing where I am super duper worry I may pissed some people of with my posts and that is what keeping me from writing most of the times. Which is weird because I am pretty sure nobody reads my blog. 

That's it. I will probably write something tomorrow. So, goodnight I guess ? 

A short notice

I won't be able to blog for a few weeks as my exam are very very near. If there is time, I will try to update it but right now I am just trying to catch up with all my syllabus.

My mood hasn't been all perky this few days so no posts. Sorry :( It is just hard for me right now. I know I shouldn't be complaining because other people has it worse but just generally being depressed for 4 days straight is not pleasant. The negative thoughts attacks me like they have nothing to do. So I apologize for not updating.

I will talk to you soon. Wish me luck that I won't give up on life.

Sleep-deprived.

School today was horrible. I found out something very hurtful and it kinda pisses me off too. Anyway, long story short, this immature asshole thought it would be fucking fun to create a club against me for no absolute reason. Yeah, maybe I shout too much but honestly I am trying not to anymore and to know what happen today hurts as hell. He even got one of my closest guy friend and one guy which I have never had a conversation at all to join. It's hurts, knowing someone stabs you in the back. What I really don't understand is that guy which I have never ever talk to before. I didn't offend him whatsoever, I didn't even talk to him nor did I scream at him so what the fuck is his fucking problem ?!

Most of my friends ask me to ignore that because for a 16 year olds guy to create this sort of shitty thing is fucking immature. It is fine to not act like your age sometimes, but using your childish antics to humiliate me, to make fun of me ? Is that how you want everyone to see you ? As this guy who will never act or think maturely ? Just thinking about him or looking at him makes me want to take a blunt knife and stab it through my trachea because his attitude absolutely disgusts me.

Honestly, what hurts the most about this is my friend who join his little kid club. This just disappoint me. This whole thing resulted me into thinking insecure thoughts again but Samantha kinda use her words of wisdom to help me feel better. This is just one of the days where everything is just overall screwing with me. I am so glad that my friends are there for me.

I am honestly trying my best to change into a better person, trying to break out of my tiny shell. Yet, how am I suppose to do so if people like that exist to make me feel worse about myself ? I guess that is just how society works.

Today's post will just mostly be rants. I don't even think anyone is reading this but it is nice to be able to write my feelings out somewhere. I didn't even get anything done because I am so depressed and sleep-deprived and just overall sick of life. I don't want to go school like really really don't want to but my parents won't let when I have no reason. Why can't I just get sick and not go to anywhere (school and tuitions) for just one full day ? My physic homework is staring at me but I am so sleepy and it is already 1.00 am so I will just go to sleep.

I was actually planning to write a more meaningful post today but I guess anger got over me. What happen today actually got me thinking so many things and overall made me feel guilty for being such a bitch to some people. So right now, honestly right from the bottom of my heart, I'm sorry to those who I offended. (Not including those who deserve it, those people deserves it. ) I'm just sorry.

This is a very good short animation film. Check it out ! It left tears in my eyes.

I'll end here before I just bored you even more.

Another day in a boring school. Gah.

It is actually 1.00 am right now which kinda saddens me because I wasted almost my whole night doing my Chinese homework. TWO SUMMARY IN A NIGHT ! I am kinda impressed with myself but frankly I think I will probably end up with like 3 out of 10 marks.

School today was fun and boring at the same time I guess. For the whole day, no teachers came in class and when some did, they ended up not teaching so whooopeeedooo for that ! I spend my time before recess, doing my add maths homework which in the end didn't at all discuss in tuition at all. Ughh wut. Then after recess, memories is kinda blur right now cause I am pretty sleepy right now but but but I remember some of my friends and I went to Explorer and ended up getting chase out by the teacher then my friend lied to us saying some fierce teacher was in class. We went hiding around and didn't went back to class till someone told us no one was in class. That liar ! I guess school is okay. Still tolerable ???

Anyway, I have 2 hours of physics class tomorrow in school so kill me now please. I am suppose to be working out now but obviously I am out of time and I cannot lose anymore sleep so maybe just a few crunches ? I don't know anymore. fsd;lfk;lsf

LEGEND OF KORRA BOOK 2 is finally out ! DID I MENTION THAT ?!? When I saw it, I was literally jumping in joy because finally ! I think the fans waited for a year plus ? I don't really start counting down until it was like 7 days away from the day. I am so so excited on what the writers are going write about and crosses finger, hoping they won't screw the storyline up. Episode 1 of Legend of Korra didn't disappoint me but it didn't satisfy me at the same time because first of all, I WANT MORE EPISODES & WAITING FOR A WEEK IS DREADFUL, and second, I didn't like how reckless Korra was. It is her personality but I thought maybe after the whole Amon thing, she wouldn't be so reckless anymore ? But hey, it is just my opinion, the season haven't end yet so I should just see how they are going to write about it.

Just recently, I read the mortal instrument series. I read the first book like beginning of the year I think and I kinda stop after the first book because I had this whole vibe going on about how I am so so so lazy to pick a book up to read even though there is like 52 more books waiting for me to read finish so yeah. I finished the second book last month and the storyline is interesting if you are into this kind of fantasy kind of stuff. I am so not into book series this few months because the next book usually takes like 2 years to release and by the time I buy the book, I forgotten the storyline from the previous book so it kinda irritates me how I have to re-read the books again. I am just taking the Mortal Instruments series slowly because I don't know when will the next book be coming out (Maybe they ended already ? I don't know. I need to check with Lora ). So we'll see. We'll see.

October is going to be a busy month for me because final year exams ( which I haven't even started studying yet. So screwed. ) and Form 4 is such a stress year because there is so much things to memorise and study and right now I am saluting all those Form 5 that got straights A or just 5 A's because I can't do that AND I AM ONLY IN FORM 4. HOW AM I GOING TO SURVIVE FORM 5 ?!

I will stop here because I used actually 30 minutes on this post and i need go pack my things and be sad about school tomorrow. Night !

Hey. What's up ?!

So I haven't been blogging since forever and just looking at Samantha's blog (which is pretty cool) , I kinda got this feel to start blogging again. Obviously my last attempt at a blog fail horribly and so I started a new one, with new URL and new templates and more meaningful posts I guess. What I am planning is maybe just blog about stuff I read or watch or whatever that comes to my mind. It won't be plainly me complaining about life in my previous blog. I am actually trying to be more outgoing and trying to break out from this shell of mine so maybe this will help me ?? Yea, so cheers to the first post of this new blog and maybe wish me luck ?