She was born lucky, I was lucky to be born.

Hi. I am just going to start the post with saying that I am not sure how long or short this post will be as I am just winging it.

But anyway, I am feeling depressed right now so the best thing I can do now is convey my sadness into words. So let's get on with it, shall we ?

I got back my some of my midterm exam results and I am  so so so disappointed with my marks. I mean I shouldn't even be disappointed as I didn't really work that hard for this exam. Yet, the feeling is there. It is always be there. The feeling of feeling worthless and pathetic will always be there. Consuming me. One of the main reasons of my sadness is mainly because of that.

Though I hope I can walk out of this, stronger. (I doubt it but trying is better right? )

I have been thinking a lot about the line from Avatar: The Last Airbender "She was born lucky, I was lucky to be born." by Zuko.

I mean, everyone around me is either smart or have some sort of talent and I have nothing. They get to do so many things and excel in so many things. But there is me, trying but always failing. Even though I know I shouldn't think that way as sometimes we don't know what is going on with other people's lives but sometimes you just kinda breakdown and let the green-eyed monster control you.

I know. I know. I shouldn't think like that. So yeah, I am trying my best to not self-pity.

I probably pissed and annoyed a lot of people off with these words. So I will stop. Ciao.