Doctor Strange

It has been a while since I updated here. I have been busy with university and the heaps of assignments my uni decide to throw at us every single day. Anyway, Doctor Strange just release in my country yesterday and despite having assignments and finals coming up, you know I have to go watch it.

To be honest, I give this movie a solid 4/5. I can't seem to give it more than that.

Story line
As always, the start of the superhero's life is the same as all the other superhero's life. Something tragic happen to them, yadda yadda. They didn't want to be heroes, yadda yadda. They were thrust upon to the life and realise they like helping people and so on. Just a cliche story. This movie was the same. While the elements of the famous Marvel jokes are in the movie to bring something new to the table, I can't help to think about how common the story line is. You can argue that it is different and yes, I will agree. However, the base/foundation of this movie is the same as the rest.

Despite this harsh review, I enjoy it. It was a light watch. I was a bit annoyed on how fast paced the movie was? It is a weird thing to get annoyed over but I thought the story progresses quite fast that it doesn't seem realistic anymore. How can someone who is so stubborn change his mind so fast about something? Doesn't see like a legit timeline here.

Characters
I don't read Doctor Strange. Heck, I don't care about Doctor Strange when I read comics. I know Doctor Strange as someone who is highly admirable by almost everyone in the Marvel Universe and also mustache buddy with Iron Man. That is Doctor Strange to me.

I wanted to watch this movie, firstly because superheroes always interest me either way. Second, one of my favourite actors, Benedict Cumberbatch will be acting as the infamous Stephen Strange. And he did not disappoint.

As expected from a fantastic actor, his acting was on point. I felt the emotions he was trying to convey. The diverse range of cast members also did not hurt the whole getting to know the characters facade. Rachel Mcadams, as always, beautiful and talented. Although her role is small in the movie, she is still an important person to Doctor Strange.

Graphic
I usually don't have a category for this kind of thing. But this year, I have been going through what is my possible career choices and I somehow got hooked on this topic.

Doctor Strange have one of the best CGI I have seen. Not because it is realistic, I am so impressed by it is the sheer fact that the work the artists had to put into the movie is admirable. The details to all the scenes was fantastic and yet didn't lose the quality of this film.

That is the kind of material I aim to create next time. The CGI is gorgeous and so well done. I was in awe when I left the theater due to the sheer details placed into every room and every "universe" (When you watch the movie you will understand)

Conclusion
Doctor Strange was okay. I didn't came out fangirling like I did with Suicide Squad or Civil War, but I enjoyed it needless to say. It was a light watch and really strengthen my resolution to be involve in this kind of industry.

I don't expect the storyline to be special so like I say 4/5. I think it is pretty solid. If you guys have the time, go watch it. You won't regret it because I certainly didn't.

Merc with the mouth. Ayy.

The last post left me thinking about a lot of things but then it also made more negative thoughts appear. Oh well. In the process on bettering myself, I guess. 

Happy Chinese New Year, by the way! Time is passing so fast, just in a blink of an eye, I am already heading off to university and it is the year of the monkey. I feel like I should have been more mature now. Though, there are still things that I regret, that I wish I could change somehow. A lot of people says that we should look forward and not back at the past but be honest, the past are the ones that made us who we are right now. After all, I tend to "forgive but never forget". 

Anyway, I watched Deadpool! After the long anticipating, I can't believe I finally watch it! Deadpool is not a typical superhero movie. In fact, he is not a superhero because superhero does not kill. Based on some superhero standard. I have always been fascinated by the idea of an anti-hero then I thought Deadpool was one. After reading much comics and reading, Deadpool is far from an anti-hero, he is in it for himself. 

His character is funny though. And I appreciate that kind of crude humor, maybe because I myself have some sort of crude humor in me too.  After waiting for so long since they announced the movie, I am not too much disappointed with it. It was what I expected, but of course, it cannot accurately show what I expect from the top to the end. 

To be honest, I expected more fourth wall breaking because that is Deadpool's specialty. I guess I also expected the movie and the story line to be longer.  But heck, I think it was okay. If any longer like the usual movies, I would have missed a part of the movie because toilet breaks (!) 

There was many comic book reference and stabs towards Marvel management, so I really enjoyed it because of it's raw honesty. I won't say what they say because spoiler alert! The beginning was also refreshing because they took a typical beginning credits into something funny. I like people who can poke fun of themselves because I don't think I can do that to myself. Those comic book stabs and reference made me laugh in delight but I somehow feel like not many people understand the jabs?? 

Anyway, Colossus was not what I imagined to be. He was funny, and so gentleman-like so I was a bit intrigued about it since I don't really follow much of the X-men. Also, there was some honest to the core jabs about X-men so it really takes away the seriousness of the movie. If you were to remove the humor of the movie, the movie could be quite gruesome. 

Conclusion, it was not what I expected fully but I enjoyed the movie. It was light-heart movie, far from all the typical superhero movies so it was refreshing and I expected the movie to be that way. Because while the producers and the directors may aim for the typical superhero movie, (you know, the hot chick, the hero, the villain, and the somewhat sidekick), they reassure the audience that hey, don't give up on this movie because look! It is different, shown in breaks from all the fighting. It kind of takes away the troubles from your mind for an hour and 48 minutes of it's sheer comedy and crudeness. Plus, the movie is not draggy, unlike certain movies, it does not take 1 hour before the main char kicks some ass because the movie transition from past to present, making it less draggy. Yet, the jokes that you heard from the movie, if you hear it again, it may not be funny anymore. Because I sense that these kind of jokes, only works once. 

In all honesty though, I think Ryan Reynolds did the Merc with the mouth character justice. Certainly better than his Deadpool cameo in X-men Origin: Wolverine. That was a nightmare. 

Watch it. I think many people and fans will enjoy it because I certainly did. 

A bit of honesty and getting up in my feelings

I realised that I spend many of my times being bitter about other things, about another people's life. I always think to myself that I am not living the best life I could live in. But somehow, I blame it on myself, not on another people.

To have this kind of thinking, is so toxic to someone. It eats you up inside, chew your self-esteem and spit it out like it was worth nothing. The mind is a dangerous place.

I am trying so hard to stay optimistic and try to not think about all the negative thinking but it is hard.When you are so consume by negativity for so long, it is pretty hard to isolate it away from you anymore.

Besides that, social media is a nightmare. As if negative thoughts aren't enough, I have snapchat to remind myself of what my mind is doing to me. People are out there having the time of their life, being smart and I am stuck here, doing nothing with my life.

I have this constant fear that I am pissing people off. It was there and it got worse when my friend told me that the things that I say is hurtful. The problem is that I don't talk much anymore, compare to previously. With the stress of college, I cut down on the words I speak of and I don't understand, I am not the only person who says hurtful things. Heck, in the group, we usually joke around about things. I would think that they know me well enough to know that I am just joking about stuff. It is scary, knowing that people are talking behind your back. Especially now, with her words out, I am more cautious about the way I speak and what I speak of. She said that she doesn't want me to shut down but don't she know that that is exactly what people will do after hearing this sort of things? It is fine, I tell myself. I think I somewhat acknowledge that when in a group with my close friend (who I shall not name), I am always last choice. It happened once, it happened again.  Many of my old friends when ask, said that they know me, and they know I am joking. Maybe it is my own personal problem and to be honest, I am trying. I am really trying. Sometimes, I just feel like it is only me. Like in every case, I most of the times gets the short end of the stick in a friendship.

I decided on a university course but I have this constant nagging fear that it is not going to go according to plan. That my life will not like how I dream it will be and I am so afraid. So so afraid. I don't have the chance to go overseas, means I don't have the chances that people who do get. This is frightening. The idea that a simple thing like that can just change the course of my whole life.

There is so many things I want to do but life deemed me to decide on just one option. What if it is the wrong one?

Many things I learned in 2015, that doesn't mean I am applying the advice and life lessons. I am trying to talk my own advice but that is hard. It is easy to give people life lessons and advice but it is far harder to take it up on your own.

Here's to a better 2016. I really do hope for a bit of luck and a change.