Wonder Woman - the one who gave everything to humanity

I have no idea what past me was thinking about if she thought that she could write a post a month this year because the last post I wrote was from the beginning of the year, and now it is already half of the year passed by.

The only two movies that I was really looking forward to was Logan and Wonder Woman. The rest was just meh to me. Logan came out in the earlier months and I had to wait till mid-year to finally be able to watch Wonder Woman. 

Wonder Woman is actually an icon for me, and to a lot of people. She was the one who somewhat started the feminist movement in the comic book universe. Female were taken less seriously and Wonder Woman put those people in place. She is one of my favourite comic book characters, no lies there. She showed everything I long to be, strong, brave and the hope she has for humanity. 

I was very worried that DC may messed up Wonder Woman solo movie, it has been long since a movie with the female superhero main character was done justice. There was Catwoman and Elektra that was straight out horrible and many people are afraid to touch the female superheroes as they are afraid that they will do them wrongly. 

DC did Wonder Woman justice. Even though, some parts was a bit cheesier than expected, the fighting style of Diana, the firm believe she has for humanity, the innocence she had was perfectly portrayed by Gal Gadot. I was skeptical with Gal Gadot at first but in BvS, she was the one of the few good things in the movie. This movie made me a huge fan. 

The cinematography was beautiful made, the CGI was beautiful as well. The way they portrayed World War 2 in the movie was good, as it was dull and dark as it was during that time period. But among that darkness, there is a tiny slice of hope. Wonder Woman did a good job in mixing fantasy with realism. 

I rate Wonder Woman 9.8/10 , which is rare as DC hasn't been impressing me lately with their movies. I was so proud of Wonder Woman, I almost shed a tear in the cinema. I fangirl endlessly in the movie. 

I AM EXTREMELY PROUD OF WONDER WOMAN.

Sometimes it takes a while to know.

It has been long since I have written. It seems that I have waited till 2017 to finally type a new post out.

I had lost passion for a lot of things. From my books to writing to all my favourite characters that I know inside out to dancing Ballet. I fall apart and tried to attached myself back again. But again and again I failed.

When it comes to a new year, I often tell myself it was time to reinvent myself, it was time to be a better me. But somehow, it doesn't really end well. This is such a common post of insecurity and self-pity in my blog but somehow I felt the urge to write this.

2016 was a big blur of confusion for me. I lost myself and found myself and lost myself yet again. I ended the year, leaving a huge hole in my head. A hole wishing I was better for myself and for everyone.

Beginning of 2016, I told myself that I would try to let people's influence shape who I am. I would not change who I am in order to satisfy what people want from me. In reality, I think I manage to do that with my university friends. I found myself being less stress about doing something just for the sake of getting recognition from peers. I found myself then. I met friends that I could appreciate and I learned to cherish friends who were always there for me. I learned to let go of expectation from people who don't give a damn about me. I have done my part to tried to maintain a friendship with you but if you don't give a damn, how else could I proceed any further? That is a lesson I would take with me for 2017.

I realised that sometimes we give more than we take. We expect the equal treatment we give people and I somehow get disappointed when it doesn't happen for me. I tell myself that is not how it works. We should do things for people and not expect the same in return because this is not what helping is about. But I somehow find it so hard to accept that, and it is the same for me now.

Goals seem like just a word for me. I had lost all confidence in being able to achieve my dreams. I look at myself in the mirror and often find myself thinking to myself. "Why is this pathetic piece of shit looking back at me?" I am not good enough, and I am not deserving of anything. This is something I have come to terms. And it is unhealthy, I know. And it is something I will need to conquer during 2017.

We are all broken inside, and only some of us can climb out. I missed being undeniably happy. I missed the simpler times, but unfortunately we can't turn back. We could only move forward.

I hope I have enough strength to move forward.

“What lies behind you and what lies in front of you, pales in comparison to what lies inside of you.” - Ralph Waldo Emerson