Thursday, August 28, 2014

Stress

Hiyaa. It will be a short post, my apologizes. It is because I am having my trials right now and I am super super stress out about it.

I feel tired and worthless and all those jumbo shit bundle up together. I have been getting so many migraines lately that today I decided to take a day rest (there is no test tomorrow). My school is having their national day celebration tomorrow and we are required to wear our traditional attire there. I am debating whether I should go but I probably won't be going.

Because I just kinda want to be alone. I guess. My mind is messed up. I am overly depressed over my exams and I just don't want to go to school and get left out by people again. If it is on a usual day when I am not feeling so shitty and worthless, I would probably brush it off because used to it but not now. Not when my emotions are all unstable and every time I think of my papers, I burst into tears. Not when I look at other people and get the overflowing emotions of jealousy. I just need a break from people...

I will end here before I typed out weird and stupid things. So long. And those who are feeling almost as shitty as I am.(Or worse.) Remember, things will get better. I may not be in a good situation now, but I am holding on to the hope that that things will get better for me. (It probably won't for me like it always do, but it is harmless to hope right ?)